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I don't really know what to call this blog.

I shouldn't feel guilty about the way I feel; I shouldn't worry that it isn't exactly how I'm 'supposed' to be feeling. Everything is labelled nowadays, and even the things that are characteristically unlabelled are manufactured and crafted to be exactly what everyone expects of these 'different', 'original' things. You can't find a box to put your feelings in and expect them to fit it; it doesn't matter if you heart doesn't flutter every time you see him, or that you didn't cry when your cat got run over or that there are some things about your best friend which you hate. If you feel it, it is real, and if it's real it's OK to feel it. I don't really know what I mean. This picture makes sense though.

And, I shouldn't allow myself to feel so competitive. I compare myself to you constantly, subconsciously and that self comparison, measuring yourself against someone - or something - else is something I have always hated and I should stop before I work myself into one.