i can taste you

sometimes I worry that I don't do things because I'm scared of being crap at them, or totally failing. This isn't supposed to sound self loving, in fact I'm expressing self loathing. I've never got below what I'm expected to in an exam, and I'm normally not happy unless I get above what is expected of me. I'm the kind of person that will be annoyed by those 2 marks I dropped somewhere in a 6 page Philosophy and Ethics paper. So, I'm a bit of a neurotic keeno, therefore I don't really put myself on the line. And it means I might not get to be what I truly want to be one day... Whatever that is.

Ok, so I don't really know where I'm going with this.