Oh my, isn't it awkward

Isn't it awkward when you are talking to someone about something, and you realise that when you were referring to your relationship and deep feelings, they were referring to the game you were playing a moment before. Some crafty back tracking is needed. How awkward.

Happy boxing day...

Well that's Christmas officially over and done with! I hope you all had a good day of eating and drinking for too much, and getting given loads of presents and general happiness and high spirits and all that lovely stuff that happens at Christmas.

These are just my top 5 happy things about this Christmas:

1) How unconventional us Tooles are. We do everything about 5 hours later than everyone else on Christmas, and only have about one tradition compared to the millions a lot of people have. Ours is having this really ugly candle alight at dinner, which my dad had been lighting on Christmas day 'before he married my mother'.

2) How thoughtful my friends are... I'm not gonna pretend I needed a mug with Audrey Hepburn as a cat on the front, that I'm going to watch the Shining or The Princess Bride more than once in my life, or that a Panda shaped hand warmer is the most essential thing in my life, but those presents are the ones that made me smile the most. Oh, how I love you guys.

3) Mince pies.

4) How amazing Les Miserables is. It made me cry, which is really rare - a live performance making someone cry. From the moment the curtain was raised I has goosebumps. It's such an incredible show because of how captivating it is. The setting is so remarkably clever that you barley notice a scene change, mainly because the actual stage rotates. It was fab.

5) The realisation that I do actually get on pretty well with my family.

Well it's time for New Year now isn't it... Cannot. Wait.

2 things that annoy me, 2 things that make me happy for every one thing that annoys me

Annoyance 1: When people in shops ask you if they can help you. 5 times. NO, I am perfectly fine thank you, just like I was the second I walked into your shop when you asked me the first time.

Thing that makes me happy 1: Hand made Christmas cards, like the one my friend gave me today. It really makes me smile.

Thing that makes me happy 2: Big old man jumpers from charity shops. I'm wearing one right now. It's snuggly.

Annoyance 2: When people post on their Facebook status 'it's Christmas in two days'. I know that, dimwit.

Thing that makes me happy 3: Noah and the Whale.

Thing that makes me happy 4: Coloured pens.

Even though it's what you want, it feels like you can't have it. It's making you happy and you think it needs to stop, because things are getting too real. But hold tight, and let yourself be OK with this... maybe you even deserve it, but let's not get carried away.


I can't wait to get my first tattoo, on my ribs.

Inspire me... Please.

I think I was greedy this summer and autumn and have used up all my artistic inspiration. I open my sketch book and there's just a blank page staring back at me.

Draw something inspiring woman, now.

The theme is 'movement' and so I far I've done a few of unimpressive, unimaginative drawings and paintings. I think what I need is a mind map. A good, ol' fashioned, big arse mind map. I need to find some good music which will actually stir any kind of emotion in me, and I need a large mug of coffee. And if that doesn't work, I will do something abstract.

If you have any ideas, they will be warmly received.

The Wizard will see you now...

The snow didn't want us to go. But, try as it might, we made it, and it was amazing.

We did end up missing the first 15 minutes, but that's only the bit with the massive dragon and doesn't really matter much anyway, so it's OK.

It really gave me those tingles. The ones when you feel like you really just need to scream, and you find yourself sitting there grinning. It also made me wish I still did as many shows :( I might try and do a few in 2010. Oh, that may be the first new year resolution I've thought of!

Anyway, it was just magical. Turned into a bit of a standing ovation, which from me was for Glinda (the GA is silent), because she just made the show in my opinion. She was just great, perfect for the part. Also, Elpheba was giving it a bit of soul which made it rather interesting.

Being a dancer, my eyes were glued on the dancers in the show... Pretty much the best choreography I have ever seen; it has changed so much since I last saw it. It's all contemporary now, so is much more fitting to the show's essence... I liked it. I liked it a lot.

Oh yeah, I'm a total nerd. I think this is officially out nerding myself?

Let me not to the marriage of true minds
Admit impediments. Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove:
O no! it is an ever-fixed mark
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wandering bark,
Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken.
Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle's compass come:
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
But bears it out even to the edge of doom.
If this be error and upon me proved,
I never writ, nor no man ever loved.
Sonnet 116


But it is so nice. <3

finding the right temperature

I'm having great difficulties getting the right temperature, I can't have a hoodie on because I boil over, and now I'm cold without it on! Doesn't help that my legs are boiling because of my laptop.

My garden has been covered in snow for the last 3 days, and I'm starting to get used to it. We all had the OMFG IT'S SNOW episode, then the let's take photos of the pretty snow, followed by the I HATE SNOW IT'S SO ANNOYING. Now, I'm on pretty good terms with the snow. It's nice.


I have officially wrapped all the presents I have brought, complete with cards and ribbon. I'm embarrassingly bad at wrapping presents though, and it's quite upsetting. I really do take a lot of time and effort cutting out the paper so it's the right size, but it still ends up silly and rubbish. Oh well, thought that counts isn't it.

I went to a fancy dress party last night, and I was a reindeer. It was fun, but i am now covered in sharpie pen and I have that horrible taste in my mouth I get when I have just one toke of a cigarette which doesn't go away all day, no matter how many times I brush my teeth. It is so grim.

Also, you know that feeling you get in your chest which feels like there's a huge bird flapping it's wings inside you? I have that feeling.

That's the spirit

Thank you for your honesty, now fuck off and die.

I love Closer and Clive Owen.

Sorry, is is 'stupid remarks' day today?

Did I miss something?


I don't want to fucking invite you to my New Year's party, I've made that clear by not inviting even when you asked to be invited. So can you stop being so fake and sucking up? Right, thank you.

As for you, is that not a bit inappropriate? I never speak to you, so why the fuck would I want to tell you if I have lost my virginity? Why the fuck did you even ask me that?

AND AS FOR YOU, grow up a bit and don't pretend that me not being completely obsessed with you is a crime.


FGS.

you're not the only one with a gun, bitch.

Last night, I went to see Avatar in a pre-screening.
It has definitely been the highlight of my week - everything about it was amazing. If I had to describe it in 3 words, they would be beautiful, gripping and exciting. Really boring and cliché words, but it is the definition of gorgeous, excitement and grippingness.

You'd never of thought it, but big blue people with tentacles coming out of their hair can be really sexy. There, I've said it, I'm attracted to animated blue men. You would be if you had seen the film.

One of the best things about the film, is it really makes you think about what bastards humans can be - selfish and destructive of nature, when really, it's a lot better than we are, and just because we can chop it down doesn't make it insignificant.

Oh, just go and see the film now. It's in 3D, I'll even lend you my glasses so you don't have to buy your own. Go on.

'they're just pissing on us without even the courtesy to call it rain.'

Snow snow snow snow snow snwo swno nwos wson wons

It SNOWED today!
It wasn't heavy snow, but it was snow all the same. Although, being England, the rain clouds came along and destroyed the pretty white tops of the roofs with their big evil raindrops. evils12.

Other than this ICT lesson, and the brief snow, today has been absolutely awful. I've spent every lesson - including this one - doing absolutely nothing. I did just get to know Anna a bit better with 23 of the 50 questions you should ask someone to get to know them better. We're that little bit more connected now.

Plus, I really hope you listen to me. I admit, I'm a bit biased, but I do think I have a point.

for god's sake

what the hell is going on?

'The One'

Some people think, that because you might have been slightly vulnerable in the past to them, that they can just assume power over you whenever they want. I didn't spend the last year telling myself how much of a waste of space you are for you to come back and try to tell me the opposite. For the first time, it's not gonna work, because I do not love you and I never will again.

That is a very, very bold statement for two reasons:

1) I just insinuated I might have loved someone (calm down dear, it's a Monday afternoon)

2) I once thought this person was 'the one'. I really, really don't believe in 'the one' any more, that was a really childish labelling I gave when I was younger. I do believe that there will be one person who will make you feel more complete and special and in love than anyone else can, but that doesn't mean that there's only one person you can love and be happy with. Or that you'll even find this miraculous person. Or that you won't find them when you're in Tesco buying nappies for your 3rd child with your husband.

So, the what I'm really trying to say is, piss off.

On a happier note...

I like Marmite.

I do not love Marmite.

I do not hate Marmite.

I like Marmite a reasonable amount.

'You either love it or you hate it' is such a bad statement. It is not as simple as that.

Life isn't as simple as that.

JEEEEEZ.

'There are other things that need to be taken into account here. Like the whole spectrum of human emotion. You can't just lump everything into these two categories and then just deny everything else! '

The wise words of whoever wrote Donnie Darko.

Children of Men - spoilers ;o

Ok, so...

Children of Men. At the start, we thought, OK - it's only been on for a few minutes, it will explain itself soon.

It didn't.

But we got the jist anyway, and we're trying to save this pregnant girl. But everyone's really angry and shooting eachother, and we don't know why. What is up with that?

Then, at the end, when it was starting to be good and even 'moving', they went and ruined it with the worst ending ever. CLIVE OWEN DIES. And we still don't know why the world is so shit.

Not all bad, because Clive Owen was in it, and let's face it, he's just gorgeous. But all the same. Wtf.

http://weheartit.com/entry/314281

I'd just like to reitterate that first point of my otherwise long and pointless blog,

The Smiths.

please excuse my thoughts and I

The luck I've had can make a good man bad, so please, please, please let me get what I want this time, Lord knows it will be the first time.

the smiths

.

weheartit

I want you to get out of my head and leave me alone, but I'd miss you if you went.

If you give me all your attention and smother me with you, I would scream I couldn't breathe.

When you look straight past me into her, my mind won't let it go.

I love to want you, but I don't want to love you.

.

I care. I care because I think I have the right to care. Maybe that's the furtherest from what I have, but I care. I care, I care, I care and it's killing me.

.

The Royal Albatross can live more than sixty years but is very young and sexually immature when it begins courting. The courtship is tender but polite, perhaps lasting four years, once the birds have chosen each other they will never choose again. However, life dictates that they cannot always be together. Sometimes they have to separate for a whole year, but they always come back again to the same craggy rock where they first met to mate again. Their bond is unbreakable throughout their long lives and no matter where they travel they will always find each other.

Random Acts of Heroic Love - Danny Scheinmann (one of my favourite books I've ever read. )

.

weheartit

Oh my, OH MY

I always have a film which is way, way in the future that I'm really looking forward to. Alice in Wonderland, Tim Burton, is too close to be such my obsession, as is Toy Story 3, and I think Eclipse would just be a let down, so, Harry Potter 7 Part 1 it is. Oh my god, though, I cannot wait.

http://everythingharrypotter.tumblr.com/

LOVELOVE

P.S, you have won and you don't even realise it.

Joseph Gordon-Levitt

'There's so much that can happen at the movies, the way you touch and whisper... I love going to the movies with a girl. I love it.

'Oh and can I just say, they play fucking comercials. If I pay 10 dollars to see a movie I don't want to see a fucking comercial. CUT THAT SHIT OUT. Gaaaad.'

MARRY ME?

he's beautiful, she's gorgeous:

I approve.

The girls who have it all.

Today, as me and my friend Anna were walking through town, we saw a girl in our year, who, although it kills us to admit, is pretty much perfection in human form (in the way she looks at least). We smiled and waved, and then looked at each other with disheartened, desperate faces:

WHY DOES SHE LOOK SO GOOD ALL THE TIME.

And it's not even like she isn't clever. Or doesn't have a boyfriend.

Because she is and does.

ohhh, my.

But not to fear, our time will come.

Once we have murdered her and destroyed all evidence.

Hmmm.

She's actually a nice girl, btw. But still.

fuck this, i'm going to hogwarts

'i'm like an irregular polygon; i have all the right number of sides and corners, but i just don't really fit.'

why does adding sunglasses to something automatically make it cool?

voldemort would not be cool, even if he had sunglasses on.

queues, queues, queues

Shopping around Christmas is awful. I know this isn't exactly a ground-breaking revelation, but it is. Especially when the shops are as big as a toilet cubicle, as they are is little old WGC - constantly shuffling out of the way to let mums with big double push chairs get through.

I've been a bit rubbish this year, and left buying Christmas presents until now, when I knew it would be awful. I know what I'm getting - all but one, and that one, I am totally stuck on. I don't want to get another cliché photo album or a 'cute' little present, because I've done them all already. I also don't want to get her something boring and serious which shows no knowledge of her personality at all... Oh, the hardships of Christmas shopping.

www.averagewizard.com might be my new favourite website?

'Last night, I had a dream Lord Voldemort had a Facebook.'

Also, I have no idea what colour to decorate my room. If I just do it, I will like whatever colours I chose, it's just the point of actually doing it. I'm warming to pale colours with cream antique looking furniture, of one dark coloured wall and the rest light. Inspire meee.

5 Reasons why I'm happy this Wednesday

1) There are no scary exams that want to kill my social life coming up at my school! Horrah! This is made even better because all my other friends have exams. Bad times guys, bad times.

2) It's been raining pretty much everyday for the last two weeks. I know this should really be under 'why England sucks' but for some reason I like it. I like the sound the rain makes against the windows on my kitchen roof. I also always think, if I was a farmer, or a fish in a pond somewhere near here, I would be really happy it was raining. Maybe, in a former life, I was a farmer fish in Stanborough Lakes.

3) Finally, my dance school is doing dances to Cats in our next show. Being 15, I can now proudly call myself a 'big girl', which means I get to be in all the 'tricky' bits of the dances and wear all the best costumes. I am really looking forward to prancing around a stage with cat ears and face paint on. It's pretty much my dream.

4) Soup. It's so great. With bagels.

5) thingsweforget.blogspot.com - it's so cliché and makes me want to throw up every now and again, but generally it's rather nice.

And a sneaky number 6) I have finished my ICT course and blogger works on my school computers... Time for many, many in school blogs - I am such a rebel.

#1

It smells of sweets and flowers. And it has to best lid in the world - it's all movey and fun and flower shaped. Yum yum yum.

P.S, this is my Christmas list, expect more like this of me being greedy wanting lots of expensive presents.

The kind of person who

I've always wanted to be the kind of person who has dinner really early. I have no idea why, I just have. However, I've realised the only reason for that, is because I have dinner really late, at like 9. So, why not I just be the kind of person who has dinner at a sensible time, say 6.30? It's only dinner, anyway.

It then got me thinking about how I always want to be 'the kind of person who...'.

The kind of person who has photos on their wall.

The kind of person who keeps a diary.

The kind of person who does their homework on the first day they get it.

The kind of person who speaks loads of different languages.

I'm kind of those kinds of people.

CTRL + Z

So, I think we are all aware of the growing ridiculousness of Facebook groups and 'Become a fan of...', but some of them are just stupid. I've just seen one that says: 'Life should have an undo button!'. It has 6, 919 fans. I seriously disagree.

If we could just 'undo' anything we aren't 100% happy with, everything would be a complete waste of time, because we'd all live in a fantasy world where it never rains and we piss glitter. I can't count the number of times something really, horrifically shit has happened to me, but then 2 months down the line something good has happened because of it, or at least I've learnt a lot. Ok, so I'm still waiting for some of those things to happen but everything happens for a reason, right?

Also, if everyone 'undid' anything bad that happened to them, they'd make a load of bad things happen to other people, who would then undo a load of things and the whole universe would just implode and die.

Do 6,919 people really want to destroy the universe, huh?

Oh, Sundays

'sundays don't count as part of the weekend, they're just the mingy bit between saturday night and monday morning'

I have wise friends.

I envy people who get anything more productive done on Sundays than making and icing cakes and cookies (that's pretty much all I did). Oh, and learn some irregular French verbs in the future tense, obviously the glue which holds the universe together.

This weekend has been long - 4 days to be precise - and it is really weird. I've been thinking it's Sunday since Friday. I am actually looking forward to it being Monday and going to school, I do believe.

Oh, I did also watch Corpse Bride - so much love to that film.

OH, and I had a dream that I lost half my followers (not that there were thousands in the first place) and got quite upset.

Haveee a happy Monday!

I need to know that it's possible that two people can stay happy together forever.

As far as boyfriends go, Paulie Bleaker is boss. He's the cheese to my macaroni And, I know that people are supposed to fall in love before they reproduce, but... I guess normalcy isn't really our style.

Juno - I think I'm in love with you.
Paulie - You mean as friends?
J - No... I mean for real. 'Cause you're, like, the coolest person I've ever met, and you don't even have to try, you know...
P - I try really hard, actually.

Thissss is the kind of love story I like.

JUNO AND PAULIE

ballet, ballet, ballet

Grade 5 ISTD Classical Ballet Examination, 2.35pm

So this is what I'm gonna look like today in my oh-so-scary ballet exam.

NOT.

I've had 4 lessons this week, but I'm still not ready, not that I ever am for ballet exams, they're so annoying.

love

Ingrid Michaelson – Winter Song

The Girl at the Lion D'or

I finished this the other night, it is lovely.

It's a short book, 250 so pages. But that's all it needs. It just picks up a really loveable character, Anne, puts her in a quiet town, throws in a complete heart throb and creates a lovely story, which in the end will break your heart.

I love Sebastian Faulks, he always completely articulates the emotions that are so unexplainable... Loveee him.

this is my 3rd? blog today, but who wouldn't

You're pushing your luck...

Yeah, well luck pushed me first.

Pushing Daisies.

Dead girl. Pie maker with the magic touch brings her back to life; they were childhood sweethearts. They can't touch though, she will die. So, they kiss through cling film.

It's amazing how happy this show makes me - the bright colours, the wit, the hilarity, the fashion, the pies, the pie maker.

So he is pretty much gorgeous...

I want to be her, keep bees, speak 20 different language, be in love with him.

today, my hands are especially cold

They are always cold, but today is special.

I had one of these today, it's the fourth I have ever purchased, and it was just as amazing. Last time, the barista was feeling like a Scrouge and gave me an extremely modest serving of whipped cream- you might as well just cancel Christmas.

Then, lo and behold, I saw a woman scrape her whipped cream into the bin. I was utterly disgusted by the scum of Welwyn Garden City. She could have scraped it into my mug!

I mean, why ask for whipped cream if you're not going to eat it, huh? Repulsive.

Also, I finally stumbled upon a beautiful coat in Debenhams, but it was £124. I may waste my money on over-priced pieces of clothes, but that was a step too far in the wrong direction.

Also, this is top of my Christmas list this year:

It. Is. Gorgeous.

It has rose to my attention

It has rose to my attention that fashion right now in the high street, is pretty poor. My friends and I agree that as we wander aimlessly through Topshop and browse boredly on ASOS.com, we are frankly not impressed.

What is going on?

When, in a moment of joy, we do see something we love, it then has to be ruined by its price tag. What, so now only rich people can wear nice clothes?

Sufjan Stevens

Isn't he lovely?

I want to go to Paris. I've planned most of my life and future in a city I've never been to, I think it might be a good idea to have a look around first?

weheartit

I just love the idea of it, the hidden cafes, the art museums, the fashion... Been reading too many books, haven't I?

I also really want to go to Ireland - quite a contrast, I know. But I hear it is lovely, and it rains a lot. I like the rain. I think I would like Ireland.

I also have a soft spot for the Irish accent, but don't we all. Nathan from Misfits, anyone?

I want to go, to Paris and Ireland, with a camera, an iPod and a sketch book. Wearing nice shoes.

I wish I had more pairs of nice shoes.

so it didn't occour to you

that any of this would bother me?

obviously not.

team Jasper anyone?

mhhhmmm

New Moon (second post about this film, oh dear).

I'm totally a wolf girl.

Thank you, Chris Weitz, thank you.

Now that the idiot who directed Twilight has hopefully been exterminated and banished from the universe, the film industry isn't making a complete embarrassment of the Twilight saga. I think it is clear that Twilight was a complete shambles but New Moon was... I'm gonna say it... Really good. Kristen Stewert was only an idiot when Edward was around, and the rest of the time she was half decent. Another amazing improvement of New Moon which Twilight didn't quite grasp the concept of: humour. The whole cinema was chuckling away (even if a lot of the time they weren't supposed to; Edward has a knack of looking very confused and constipated a lot of the time). Also, it seemed a lot more down to earth, and some of it even seemed like it could possibly happen in real life! However, the biggest improvement, I have to admit and I'm sure everyone else agrees, Taylor Lautner. Post haircut.

quotes are fun

'you threw my sandwich away? My sandwich? My sandwich?'

'butt scratcher? Butt scratcher?' 'butt scratcher!' 'Butt scratcher?'

'iiiiii'm a tumour i'm a tumour i'm a tumour'

'I hid under your porch because i love you'

'i like you temporarily'

'me ma moo ma moo'

'i hope everyone like mexican food because i'm making FAJITAS'

'4 for you Glen Coco, you go go Glen Coco!'

'OOOOOHHHHHHH.'

bluck

They really do make me want to cry (L)

So, yeah, Twilight.

This is an issue that needs to be addressed; I do still care about Twilight. I tried to hide it, I tried to fight it, but I couldn't.

Yes, Kristen Stewart is the biggest idiot in the world and cannot act for shit.

Yes, Robert Pattinson (my sister's boy friend is called Robert Patterson - it always makes me smile) isn't actually that hot.

Yes, it is the most ridiculous thing ever created.

BUT I STILL CAN'T WAIT FOR THE NEW FILM THIS WEEKEND. It is going to be so good. I will sit and I will criticize and I will curse and I WILL ENJOY IT.

I JUST APOLOGISED TO YOU

not that you care

'it's the lesser of two evils'

or is it?

it isn't always easy to say.

surely,

it's simple: she loves him and he loves her?

Obviously not.

Relationships are really complicated, even when they are just two people at 'high school' being boyfriend and girlfriend. It's painful even when you're not in the relationship, and you see two people hurting one and other. Makes me want to run and hide from them! But, I know, that when it's worth it, you'll make it through all the painful arguments, and if you don't then it's for a reason, and you should be happy about the good times you had with a person, and not worry about the bad times. I hope. I don't know.

I hope this all makes more sense in a few years time.

wash my teeth with a bottle of jack, cause when i leave in for the night i'm not coming back

I change my mind all the time. One day I'm in love with that guy, the next I couldn't care less if I never saw him again, and the next I don't think of him once. I hate how I look, I love how I am, what does it even matter? I want to be a writer, I want to be a tattoo artist, I want to be a lawyer, I want to be an astronaut. I want to go, I want to stay. I think I want this; I think I don't want this; I do not know what I think.

happy clappy

GOODBYE MATHS, OH YES.

until easter/summer, that is. Hrmph.

I have realised that I wear black 90% of the time, and the other 10% I am sleeping or dancing. But who really cares? Black is great, it's 'slimming' and all.

This is a tres pointless post, but I was in the mood for a post, so here it is.

AU REVOIR

idon'tknowwhattodoidon'tknowwhattodoidon'tknowwhattodo

about so many things

eurghhh

I'm just having mind blocks and can't think about anything.

* but toffee nut cafe lattes are really nice and so are mince pies

I love old photographs; something about them is just so lovely. This is my grandma when she was about twenty; she's the spitting image of my mum.

I'm now done being upset about this; there's no point - it's not going to change anything right now. This time next year, all these things will be sorted out and I'll just be pissed off with myself for giving them so much of my time, just like I am now about all the stupid things I spent the whole of this year worrying about. They get in the way of seeing what is good.

I've been waking up mega early this week, so I have time to do fun things like post blogs in the morning :)

happy belated halloween

only by about 35 years.

I have found myself

using the phrase

'just do it, who even gives a shit'

to justify my actions a lot recently. I don't know if this is a good or a bad thing.

It's the worst feeling

when you're looking at weheartit, wordboner, postsecret, and you see all these pictures and posts about all the dick heads who are breaking everyone's heart... and you realise that you're one of those dickheads who is breaking everyone's hearts.

ohhh

I'm gonna do these one day. Even if I have to kidnap people and strap them to a chair, I will do it.

I hid under your porch because I love you

If you are going to see a film soon, see Up, it's lovely.

Makes me want to make these films

I can't decide

Whether or not I wish I had been there, or if I'm really glad I wasn't.

And I really liked this picture off ffffound.com

weheartit

I know that you didn't mean to do that - although maybe you did - but I still think you did, which is why I wouldn't blame you if you did in fact do that on purpose.

This is why I shouldn't be allowed to do this kind of thing.

happysunday

Daisy Lowe; i want to be you




Today is an average Sunday, full of homework and singing, big jumpers and cosy socks, postsecret and weheartit, oh, and finding my iPod.

Ohmygod, so you think I'm in contorl?

I want to see the Northern Lights. At least once.

I really wish I had a 'dream' or something. I used to; I used to really want to be a dancer, but now I get out of breath after grade5modern warm up, and realised I wasn't actually that good or liked it as much as I thought, so all in all not a good career move. Don't get me wrong, I love dancing, just not that much. I'm not even going to go and see Fame, it will just depress me, much like Step Up.

Anyway, I really have no idea what I want to do after 6th form, and I know Uni.'s still quite a way away, but it worries me. There are loads of things I want to do (such as have a painting in the Tate whilst curing cancer and abolishing poverty), but I can't do them all. Really, I'd just like to sit at home painting mugs and writing blogs for a living (but seeing as I'm yet to push double figures on my followers, might be a bit of a waste). I'd also like to be a tattoo artist, would be quite fun, but I'm not actually very pro-tattoos (really, will you like the naked woman on your bicep when you're 67, Mr Biker Man?), and would probably screw someone's face up while I'm at it.

So, I guess I should just learn a few more things and see where that goes...

I love my friends. And electric blankets (grandmas know how to do it on a cold September night).

Plus, I just dyed my hair, and although no-one else will notice this, unless of course they read this post, I like it. And I like that no-one else will notice it.

It's really not a big deal

You know when you make a huge deal out something when really it's nothing, but you can't go back to it not being a big deal because you've gone and blown it up in your head, and even if you pretend you haven't, the fact you're pretending makes it still a big deal?

Happens to me on a daily basis.

I currently love Our Lady Peace and Laura Marling, and currently hate maths and science, so pretty normal goings on. Everyone seems to be getting together and have BOYFs and GIRLFs - sounds like fun, I guess.

However I prefer eating KitKat Chunkies and reading books and watching How I Met Your Mother, but that's just me. I don't what it would be like to do those things AND have a boyfriend, quite a handful I'm thinking.

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Girl power

Angry blog post:

It really annoys me when the girl (out of girlfriend and boyfriend) acts like a complete push over. They take the blame for arguments which the other paramore has started. They cry over milk which the other party has spilt (oh wow, felt like a bad analogy). They will accept the blame for anything that to make the argument stop. And it isn't right! OH NO.

Isn't it strange

When you see that person's name in your text inbox that you used to always wish would text you, and are disappointed because you wish it was someone else? I hope that made sense. It's a strange feeling.

I've had a few... revelations today, some may say.

The most recent is the point above - sometimes the only thing you need to get over something is to fill the space it was in with something new.

Another thing I have decided today is that I will never decide to skip a meal or try to be size 0 ever again (even if when I did it only lasted an hour or so). It's not something you joke about or try for a few days because all the girls are doing it. It's just not a joke.

The other thought I had was about girls being idiots. We over analyse everything that happens to us: he didn't reply for 10 minutes - he MUST be off kissing another girl or thinks I'm a complete and utter loser retard. OR, even worse, he may have gone to make a cup of tea?

We seriously need to chill.

Anyway, on a happier note, I'm very much looking forward to tomorrow; I have my 3 favourite lessons (English Art Spanish) and then get to miss my least favourite lesson (PE) to get ready for Duke of Eddddd.

3 people in a 2 man tent with oreos? yes please

Good night all :)

Oh, and go on gmh.com - it's like FML but happy.

OH, and I love Laura Marling, and so should you.

Types of Documents

I never knew there were so many.

Really, it's enthralling.

5 reasons why I love being a girl

1. We can tell our best girlfriend we love her over and over.

I know you guys do it, but it's never awkward or funny with us.

2. We can get excited about things like vintage and pink paper clips.

Sure, x-boxes and car tyres are fun but come one... Multi-coloured stationary?

3. We can never be told 'you throw like a girl' or to 'man up'.

We are girls.

4. We can act like boys if we want.

Every now and then it's fun to burp reallt loudly in public, but how often do you see a boy fiddling with his hair in a compact at lunch times?

5. We can have the biggest most random and dramatic mood swings we want - PMS

So what if one minute we're sobbing because of how much we hate our lives, and the next singing ast the top of our lungs dancing around our bedrooms?

I think she's great

she killed it with kisses and from it she fled

with every bubble she sank with her drink

and washed it away down the kitchen sink

Florence + the Machine

Things I'm thankful for this Monday...

Pesto

My mum, who gave me a lift to and from my awful work experience, and made me dinner because my tonsils are hurting.

How I Met Your Mother - haaaave you met Ted?

Pete Yorn and Scarlette Johansson

The prospect of eating ice cream whilst watching One Tree Hill

How short Monday - Friday is

Oh, Joseph

salut!

Haven't blogged in a few days, so this will be a long'en... buckle up.

There's a blog I follow, called Le Love, and I le love it. It has loads of posts that all about just that - L O V E. Some are sweet, some are heart breaking, some are funny, but today, I think I've read my favourite. 'Nice guys finish last because they're pussies'. Go find the blog and read it - leloveimage.blogspot

You will love it.

I have an audition today for Les Miserables at my local theatre with a youth theatre company that has provided me with many fun - and embarrassing - moments on stage. However, being me, I have a sore throat and a cold today, so I'm sure I will be sounding absolutely wonderful today! Oh well, they know I can't sing anyway, but it's never stopped them giving me parts before, I don't see why this should be any different.

Then, tonight, I'm going to see... 500 DAYS OF SUMMER. I have been waiting for this for a long, long time and the day has come! After today, I don't know what meaning my life will actually have. It probably won't be as good as I've been making it up to be, but I'm sure it will be pretty spectacular anyway.

Alas, we are back to school. The last two days have been rather wasteful. Had quite a funny whole school photo where I stood next to my darllling friend Anna and gaped at the hot PE teacher, who we have rightfully named, Mr Trim. He is rather dissshy.

Anyway, hope y'all have a lovely Saturday :)

X

bonjour!
I haven't blogged in a long, long time - I feel positively dirty.

It's Sunday evening, and I've had a very tiring and crazy weekend. I had a pimps and hoes party on Friday night which was a lot of fun - spin the bottle never gets old. The mess wasn't too bad so the next day I went and made a load of cookies for my ill friend who is stuck in her house for the rest of her life. Well a few days. She liked them. We watched family guy - I'm sneakers O'Toole. I then went off to a party at someone's house where I hardly knew anyone, but that didn't stop me getting plastered and walking around with my mouth open. Ah, it's all good fun.

Right now I'm searching for a nice hoody - it's getting closer and closer to that time of year. I love buying jumpers, because you just know you're going to wear it everyday for the next month. I'm thinking maybe a superdry?

I hope anyone who ever actually bothers to read this has had a good summer :)

x

Packing, packing

Don't you love it when there's a silent and calm evening, and you begin to hear a few patters of rain hit the window, and within 5 seconds there's torrential rain pounding outside. I love being inside when it's raining outside, makes it feel like winter - my favourite season, mainly because I love coats. I love summer, don't get me wrong, but I'm definitely looking forward to layers, knitted jumpers and boots for the winter and autumn colours. I've said the word love a lot in the last paragraph, but I think it's all in order.

I'm going to Greece tomorrow, my third holiday this year, and I'm just getting better and better at packing light! I always worry too much and end up bringing ridiculous amounts of shaving cream and body lotion, but not this time, oh nooo! Packing liiiight. It also didn't take me too long, so I've watched a lot of Gossip Girl with my sister - we now can say the opening sequence perfectly in time with the TV and we even have a small dance. Oh, how I wish I was Blair Waldorf. Serena's OK, but it's funner to be a bitch, non? I also had a last minute catch up with two of my friendies, and now I want to see ALL OF THEM, but alas, I cannot, sad, sad times.

Anyway I should really get an early night, even though we're not going until midday - I've had enough of early mornings! I will definitely miss my Spotify account - Jenny Don't Be Hasty, Paolo Nutini is currently making me smile.

Hope anyone who actually reads my blogs has a good next 11 days. Hope people don't read it do to, but you guys are special.

X

OH packing is a chore.

I usually quite like it, but this is the third time, and je suis very tired. Need to wash everything, dry everything, go to boots and buy 'things'. Oh well, at least I'm going on holiday, I suppose. I'm looking forward to reading and doing nothing, it will be fun.

But, sleep comes first, always.

X

Remember

Last night I stayed over a friend's house with two girls and we ended up having the biggest heart to heart I've had in a long, long time. They're both gorgeous girls, and both have boyfriends who they are hopelessly devoted to. The things we talked about have reminded me that however much us girls (and boys) scream and cry about how frustrating the opposite sex is, there are exceptions for each of us. It's reminded me that everyone will find that boy (or girl) who they just feel right with, and then all that we say he hate about boys/girls will just dissappear and we'll be happy :) It might not come for another 5 years, it might come tomorrow, but when it does, you will know and there will be no doubt and know hesitation... You'll know.

We shared a lot, and I miss having those kind of chats. They make you feel so much better about everything. I'm going to have those chats more.

I need to start packing.

have good days :)

X

Tonight

I'm having my third girly sleepover in a row. This time it's with two loovely ladies who I haven't seen in far too long, and I'm very excited :) We're planning on eating crap food and watching good films. It should be fun :)

As per always

As per always, I feel as though summer is passing me by a little too quickly. Every year, have a list of things I want to do in the summer, and, every year, I don't end up doing any of them. This year I wanted to learn how to make a skirt, and I got as far as chosing some nice material. I wanted to do another portrait of someone, like I did in the easter holidays, but, alas, I have not. I also haven't read all of any books. I fact, I haven't finished a book that I've been reading since about May. Oh, I also wanted to 'get fit' and play a lot of tennis, but I hardly blame that not happening on summer going to quickly.

However, all is not lost, the summer isn't over yet! I still have the opportunity to laze around on a beach reading as many books as I can when I go to Greece this Thursday, and perhaps I'll even get a bit of tennis in there. Anyway, we must all be very cliche and remember everything we did do, rather than everything we didn't.

Even if summer is almost over, that means it's nearly christmas, which can't be a bad thing. I've always preferred Christmas to summer - mulled wine and mince pies, gloves and scarves, giving and receiving presents, seeing that part of the family that you haven't seen all year.

Books I'm going to read this summer.

Ok so fair enough I'm not pulling the most attractive face in the 'before' photo, in fact I look rather like a fish, but I generally I like it? Something different after all.

Birdsong

So I'm already near the end of this book, but it's proving to be a lot longer than I thought! It's a really good book, and definately lives up to everything I heard about it. I love books about WW1 and this one is great because it also has a great love story, as well as being really well written.

Keeping Faith

Generally, I don't like Jodi Picoult. She annoys me. The first book I read by her was the Pact. It wasn't my favourite book in the world to say the least. I found it too slow and predictable, maybe a bit too cliche. However, my friend has persuaded to give Keeping Faith. It's about a woman's daughter who gets spiritual sightings etc, and the mother is an athiest. I'll give it a go, but I might not like it much.

Time Traveller's Wife

Unfortunately I'm in Greece when the film comes out, but seeing the adverts has made me desperate to read the book. I love Rachel McAdams, so will see the film as soon as I can when I'm home. So, as I can't see the film for a good few weeks, I might as well read the book first! I'm gonna buy it today and I'm really looking forward to it. I don't really know what it's about - a man who time travels's wife, I'm guessing. I've heard it's good!

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